when u meet your death...
like every1s life my life have has been through loads of ups and down..
and of course like every ordinary human i too have been thinking of just ending my life and walking away from
all the pains and odds of life but yes they are just thoughts... i never really tried ending my life..
uhmmm, "blogger's till last week i never really valued my life.."
for me my life was just a game which i was playing and was OK if i lost it.. cause i actually didn't know
the meaning of losing on to life..
life was bad when i failed in my history papers..
life sucked when i went through a heart break.. life was getting worst when i was losing onto my loved ones..
life got more horrible when my trust was broken by my near and dear ones.. life sinked in the depression every time
i went through even a small pain...
from the time i matured i.e. when i left school, i just didn't leave school but with that i left many friends or maybe they left me..
my junior college was all about 1st love...
hugs... caring & sharing ..and then a heart ache...
my 1st love broke my heart .. he was a hero for me, he made me live my dreams,
made me learn to love but he forgot to show little trust on me,
the only thing which made us grow apart was that he forgot that i was a learner and i was still learning and was not that
matured the way he was... he had went through the pace called teenage while i was still going...
then came a time where i was done with my 12th and it was the time where i had to leave my all buddies behind
and enter into a new career new life & new college & new friends..
and to put light on my new life, it didn't welcome me that great..
cause i met the most horrible pace of my life, for all the teenager blogger's i would say its even worst then a
heartbreak..
severe migraine was detected...
late night attacks, severe pain, yelling my lungs out, staying awake in pain whole night, going to every possible
hospital just to feel little better... but nothing goes against god's wish.. he just didn't wanted me to be OK that
time..
time & health was getting worst, and all the memories got erased from my mind... all i could remember
was my identity and my family..
i donno what my family and friends were going through at that time but all i was know that i wanted to get fine and better..
i was in pain, injections, different tests, every time a new doctor,
hospitals.. it all sucked.. i wanted to get out of the ICU and breath the fresh air..
slowly time got better so did my health..
in above all the bad moments, every moment all i wanted was to end my life forever... cause i had too much of pain [from
my point of view] i found death more calming then going through such a terrible pain.. every little thing was painful
when i was sad and i made it even worse by listening to sad songs & thinking and talking about that over
and over again..
but blogger's trust me, i was stupid and silly.. i didn't value life, life was never beautiful for me till i met my death...
GOA !!!!!!
fun fun and fun.. that's all GOA is about...
like every other person i too was having the fun and enjoying my life to the fullest..
parties beaches hots guys shopping boozing clicking pictures Churches & WATER SPORTS..
it was a bright early sunny morning in GOA.. where me and my cousin pooja was all set for a a jet ski ride
from the sea shore to the the middle of the sea where we then got down
on a huge ship and lined up in a Que for para-sealing...
all excited and little scared.. but was knowing deep down this craziness is going to lead both
of us to a unforgettable memory and wild fun..
and as i said it was really crazy fun ride ad we made up to an amazing unforgettable memory...
but blogger's life can just get worst in a moment of eye blink...
within a eye blink i was standing in front of my death...
my life my faith my hopes everything was crumbling down in front of my eyes..
while getting down from the huge ship deck which was in middle of the deep sea to the jet ski,
i slipped away and i was in deep water..
while my younger cousin pooja was on the jet ski
who was scared and was in tears, who was yelling to me that swim swim, nothings gonna go wrong.. i am here
but all this was like a back ground music which i was ignoring..and to the horror i cant swim..
all i was knowing was i am in deep sea, my face is inside the salty water and i am just unable to breath
.. people around was trying their level best to pull me up but the force of water waves was making
them lose on to my hands... they were just unable to pull me on the deck..
i closed my eyes and could see a flash back of all the most beautiful memories of my life,
i could see my mom dad brother... and i wanted to tell them i love them and i want to live with them..
i love them and i don't want to go away... after sometime i went blank...i was losing all the hopes..
and i thought now its the time where i
just have to go away from all forever... i was in tears ..
i was crying out for help...i wanted to live... i didn't want the death...that moment i realized the beauty
and value of my life... i prayed to god and promised him that i ll value my life, live every moment for people
whom i love...and then i realised i was floating and not drowning and that time it came in my mind i had a life
jacket on me :D
all the blogger's, teenagers, Friends, family and people around.... though this was funny incident but it taught me a lot..
life is beautiful if you chose to see it that way..
life is more guys, live love and enjoy it...
it wont even a take a eye blink when life ll take away everything from you and you would that time wanting it to
live...
i was lucky to have my life jacket on...but guys even a life jacket would be useless if you don't realize the
value of life in time... before its too late... love the loved ones...
understand the beauty of life... remember whatever life ll give u today its going to take away tomorrow so
better have it and love it instead of crying tomorrow...
life is beautiful, love it !
